Jori Zemel Children's Bone Cancer Foundation

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In the past I was the present
Faltering to live one day at a time
Saving breath for the next day to come
Planning ahead and getting lost in behind
Always running towards the last step
Instead of waiting for it to pass
I exhausted time
Rushed by an unseen end
Then forced myself to cherish the moment
Make each breath fill a million bodies
I stopped time
And benefited endlessly

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I am a silly girl with many hopes and dreams
I pretend that I am a butterfly on a cheery day
I hear the trees whisper to another in the majestic, quiet woods
I want to live my life to the fullest every day
I am a silly girl with many hopes and dreams

I wonder why God chose me to have cancer
I understand that I am not the only one
Yet I feel alone and secluded
I dream about what a normal life is like
I worry if I will make it through all my pain
And I know that I must hold on and be strong
I am a silly girl with many hopes and dreams

I touch the hearts of all suffering kids
I cry when I see kids just like me
I try to love everybody for who they are
I say that people should reach out to each other
I hope people see me for who I am
I am a silly girl with many hopes and dreams

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Come with me…
To a magical place where candy floats and
dances in your head
Where dainty sugar plum fairies hum you
to sleep
Where everyone is beautiful in their own way
and wishes come true
Where candy arrives at your feet before
the sun does
Where everyone is treated equally and the
singing of harps flutters through your ears
Where the sun sparkles through the cloudy sky
Where the sunset gleams all day and the
moon shines all night
Where there is no hate and everybody
wears a smile all day long
Where even grown ups have the
heart of a child
Come with me…

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I am your knight in shining armor
Silver glistening strong with might
I do not speak nor reach out
By my presence fills you
And comforts the pain

As the days pass your hurt grows deeper
A would unhealing manifested through withdrawal
Silence is what binds the both of us
As I soothe the sores
And strength is regained
Sorrow is replaced by laughter
Smiles are seen instead of regret
As I finish healing your suffering
I whisper a farewell and drift away

Could You (February 2000)

Could you whisper me sweet nothings
and tell me everything is going to be all right
Could you tell me lies to make me smile
Could you kiss away my pain
If I would kiss you back
Could you heal my pain
with the caress of your hand
Could you mend my crying soul
with a smile and laughter of gold
Could you make me forget my thoughts
with a twinkle in you eye

Could you but would you

Dreamer

One day I will laugh with true joy and the heart of a child
One day I will dream like a newborn baby fast asleep
One day I will hold a child in my hands
precious like a treasured pearl
One day I will sing with the birds and talk with the trees
One day when life is happy and I'm free from my own prison
One day

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I have fire in my eyes
but the tears wash away the pain
My heart is cold
but the pain melts the ice
I have loneliness in my soul
but my pride gets in the way
I wear a mask of happiness to cover the hurt
I am the very image of perfection
which covers all my mistakes
I am lost in a sea of lies and fakeness
Lost hope and silenced pain that will never cease
Each day my soul withers and dies more than the last
Kill me slowly or kill me fast
It doesn't seem to matter anymore
My life is in the two people who love me most
and there it will live freely